i can see the stars from way down here

Fall semester of junior year is done. I'm over halfway done with my college career and its really weird. I don't know how to feel about it whatsoever. Right now, though, I'm feeling pretty great about it. For one, its great to relax finally. The last two weeks of the semester were crazy. I think I had something going on every single night I was there. Needless to say, it is nice to not have a schedule for a bit.

Finals went well and I'm pleased with the work that I put out, even if it was rushed and done in a blur. I had some awesome nights (hanging out with Jo, Lighthouse stuff, staying up way too late with Thrush watching movies, finishing my freaking spanish paper) and some horrible ones (writing any paper last week, especially spanish, and dealing with some heavy stuff on the floor).

It is also great to have the chance to process everything that has happened this past semester. Being a PA is probably the best job in the world (for a college-age male living in a residence hall at a private Christian university), but I think I've been challenged more this semester than any other semester I've had. Ireland challenged me in very different ways, but this experience has been much different. Some days, it has sucked. Kind of like those days when you come back to your room, want to shower or something to try and get that nasty feeling off your body but know that it won't do any good because its your head that was getting taken through its paces and now that its finally to go to sleep, you can't because your head won't stop spinning from what you could have done differently or what could possibly happen next, or why God is teaching you these things in the first place, all the while thinking that it would be nice to concretely know what God was trying to teach you anyway.

But then you have those days when you come back to your room after being refreshed by hanging with a good friend or floormate and having him say that he won't know what to do with himself during jterm without you, just after having a great conversation or just cuddling with your amazingly wonderful girlfriend (who I miss quite a lot right now).

So I'm still processing this whole thing. I'm processing for next year too, as I'm still trying to decide what I want to do with PAing or off campusing or what have you. I want to devote jterm to my Lighthouse trip entirely and not think about things like that, so I would like to have pondered that quite a bit before i head out.


Overall, I loved this semester. It was a challenge and I've got a lot of growing to do still, and that excites me. God is faithful and I love Him for not letting me learn things the easy way so that I get the full experience and wisdom. Wisdom is a funny thing - it never comes easy, and I would never want it to come that way.

I really miss Jo.

I think I'm going to take a computer fast for the next week. I don't need it and I'm on break. Why not enjoy myself away from this old thing? So I will. Peace out.

Great songs: Love and Some Verses by Iron and Wine and Sæglópur by Sigur Ros.